The Dark Thrall Mating Olivia

Chapter Eighty-Four

His hand moved up my back and I trembled. I shouldn't want him to be here. It wasn't fair to either of my mates, but I wasn't ready for him to let me go. I didn't want to pull away from him, either.

I just wanted to stay like this for a moment longer even if everything in me screamed that it was dangerous. That he was just going to end up hurting me.

There had been so many nights that I had prayed to the moon goddess for a moment just like this. A moment where Nick was holding me and telling me everything that I had longed to hear. Slowly, my tears subsided and I was able to calm my hiccupping sobs. I took another deep breath, bringing my hands up to rest them on Nick's chest to push him away. The thought fled my mind as his scent filled my senses, chasing away every worry. The smell of caramel and well worn leather that was soft to the touch lingered at the back of my throat. Filling me with something that I didn't want to feel.

Something that I shouldn't feel for him.

Desire.

I closed my eyes, sucking in another lungful. Why did his scent still smell so good to me? Why did it make my mouth water and my teeth grow sharp with the urge to claim him? I could feel my vision sharpening as my wolf came up to the surface, just as ready to claim him as I was.

I shouldn't want that. He had rejected me. That rejection should have severed any draw that I felt towards him. Yet, it didn't. I still felt the same pull that I did on the day when I'd realized that he was my mate.

"Livie." He said softly and I bit my lower lip, feeling my body respond to him.

Sparks danced along my skin at his touch, and desire pulsed low in the pit of my stomach. I wanted to touch him, but I couldn't do that to my mates.

I wouldn't do that to them.noveldrama

Pushing against Nick's chest, I felt the muscles beneath my palms bunch. His heart beat faster, his scent grew stronger around us. He loosened his hold, letting me pull away slightly.

I looked up at him, my tongue moving over my lower lip. My mouth felt dry from all the crying and I knew that my face was probably red and splotchy. "Nick, we-"

"Shh." He said, shaking his head. He brought his hands up to the sides of my face, his thumbs moving over my cheeks to dry my tears. "Don't cry anymore."

"Nick."

"Livie." He said, just as softly as I had. His eyes flicked down to my lips and he leaned closer.

A cry sounded out from the other room and I jerked away. Turning my back to him and scrubbing my hands over my face.

"That's Everly. I should go take care of her." I said, all but running away from him and the feelings that I wasn't ready to face. The feelings that I shouldn't be having towards him.

Making my way down the hallway towards my bedroom, I pushed open the door. Everly was stirring in her crib. She had rolled over onto her stomach and was making those sweet little baby sounds. Rushing over, I picked her up, holding her close to me and she cuddled against my chest. "Hi, Everly. Did you sleep well?" I cooed and she let out a whimper. Her hand moving the neckline of my shirt. "Not right now, sweet girl."

I knew that if she nursed right now, that she would go back to sleep for a longer nap. It would make her irritable and cranky for the rest of the day if I did that. Shaking my head, I took her over to my bed and changed, tossed her wet diaper into the wastebasket before I picked her up.

"There you go. I bet that feels better." I bite my lower lip, looking over towards the hallway. Nick was still out there. My wolf could sense him. I was nervous to go back out there, but I didn't want to keep him from meeting Everly if he wanted a relationship with her.

I needed to get this over with, just worrying about it wasn't helping me. If Nick was going to be in my life for Everly, then I was going to need to learn how to be around him. The mate pull to him should have been severed when he rejected me. I could still feel that pull to go to him, to claim him and to be claimed by him. I needed to let that feeling go. It wouldn't lead to anything but a broken feeling that I never wanted to feel again.

Later, I would talk to my mates about what had almost happened. Yes, I was scared how they would react. But they needed to know. No matter how confused I felt about Nick, I would never do anything to hurt Jay or Killian. I had the feeling that if we had kissed, that would have hurt them.

Everly let out a fussy little cry when she realized that I wasn't going to nurse her back to sleep. I patted her bottom, bouncing her a little as I walked towards the hallway.

"There is someone who wants to meet you." I said, walking into the hallway. I made my way past the living room, stopping before I reached the kitchen. Sucking in a breath, I shifted Everly onto my hip and smoothed my hair back.

My face felt flushed and I wished that I could make myself feel nothing towards Nick. My nerves were trying to get the better of me and my wolf... My wolf was whispering things that I knew that I shouldn't want.

Telling me that we could all be one big happy family. Jay, Killian, Nick, Everly and me. That if I claimed him and he claimed me, they would have to learn to accept him.

Even though a part of me wanted that, I wasn't willing to do what my wolf wanted. She let out a huff going silent and I put on the fake customer service smile on my face that I used with customers at the diner.