Novel Drama Chapter 30: Panic Attack
Chapter 30: Panic Attack
Kaylee's POV
I was nervous and worried when I neared the door since I know that he is telling me to go out for my
sake since he always takes all the blame all to himself.
He always starts or engaged in a fight and I always join but when we are caught, he takes all the blame
to himself and push me aside and join the people who were just dragged into the mess unwilling.
I stop for a minute and look back at Glen and he's back was facing me making me remember the same
back who faced me back then and--.
I suppressed myself from remembering that awful memory but still it keeps on coming back to me even
though I don't want to remember it.
(It haunts me everything time I am in a situation where I always wait for him outside a room knowing
that he is probably being beaten ins-- STOP)
Even though I keep on making and trying my thoughts to vanish but still it's too strong that I can't stop
it.
I opened the door and walk out still trying to remove the thought in my mind.
"They are different in here" I mumble while looking ahead. I went to the long chair next to the door and
took a sit then wait for Glen to come out.
Then just like that it started to happen again. The memories flashed like a tsunami making me numb
and frozen still.
Glen's bruise face. Those painful smile those.... those.... those...
I snap back and I immediately shake my head to try and put away the painful memory. I look at my novelbin
hands and they are starting to tremble nonstop.
I tried to make it stop buy shaking it but still it won't stop. I shake it harder the second time still trying to
stop but it was nothing, it keeps on shaking uncontrollably making me start to panic.
I then look at the door worriedly and then I froze when I something flashed making me shut my eyes
immediately.
Everything’s going to be alright... I promise
(He always saves me every time and I just stare at his back the whole time doing nothing while watch
them hurt him)
Then again, the memory of Glen flashed to my mind making me shiver in horror.
Glen's bruise face. Those painful smile those.... those.... those...
I immediately froze and open my eyes and look at my feet. I was too frozen enough not to even blink
my eyes again for a moment.
"Th... they can't possibly do that here right. Everyone is good here, right... everyone's good here" I tried
reassuring myself, that nothings gonna happened, like what Glen said.
(I believe in him. I've always been believing in him ever since we're kids and I won't change that fact.
Even though Sir Tanner is scary he can't possibly hurt Glen right. But still we don't know what will
happen next)
They always smile and good to you at first like they are... angels.
Sweetheart are you having fun today...
Morning Kaylee....
How was your day...
Are you alright Kaylee...
With their smiles and happy face. I was deceived back then when both Glen and I were in elementary.
I was too innocent and care free that I always trust everyone easily thinking that all people are good
and that they don't want to hurt you.
I trusted them easily and treated all of them like they are my best friends.
I give them smiles and happy faces not knowing that behind their smiles there is another motive.
One day I learn the awful truth in this world where we live in. And not like the world is ending but rather
it was like my world nearly ended.
"Kaylee can we talk for a moment" one of my classmates told me when I was alone playing.
"Uhm... I'm waiting for Glen since he went to get something and he'll come find me and he'll be worried
if I'm not here" I replied while looking around and try to see if Glen is already here.
"It'll only take a minute" she said and I just look at her contemplating whether to go or not.
"But-" they grab my hand and pull me.
I was about to protest but she was stronger and insisted to follow her. I was a little bit taken a back and
small back then so she easily pulled me along.
"We'll have fun and when you come back, he'll be here waiting for you just on time. It will only take a
minute" she said reassuring me.
She insisted that it will only take a minute so I sighed and like a happy friend am I, I agreed.
So I followed and she lead me to the back of the school ground. I tried asking her "Aren't we lost" but
she just ignored me and drag me along to the place where who knows.
When we arrived at our direction and I was too shocked that I can't even move.
The bullies of the school were waiting for me at the back of the school building. They all look around at
me when I arrived.
I immediately tried to understand what is happening and my mind says for me to run but my feet
suddenly got stuck on the ground.
"She's here now so could you let me go" my classmate said making me look at her surprised and
confusion.
She turned around and ran not bothering to look back and help me.
That time I was so scared that my body became numb and that moment I felt betrayed, hurt and most
of all taken advantage.
I've heard that these bullies are hurting other kids, most especially girls. I fall on the ground when they
step forward.
"Let's play..." they said and I felt that they mean something else. I cried and pleaded for them not to do
anything to me and just let me go.
I even tried to warn them that I will tell my parents and the teachers but they only laughed and came
close to me even more.
They still came near and I was so petrified that the only thing I could do is close my eyes while shaking
in fear and hope that everything was just a crazy dream.
I waited for them to came close to me and I felt that my heart is about to burst out. I wanted to scream
but it was stuck to my throat. But lucky me they never came and touch me.
Until I heard people groaning and shouting followed by the sound of punches and kicks.
I never dared to open my eyes and just waited everything to stop and I was just sobbing in fear while
clutching unto my clothes for comfort.
Then suddenly a hand touch me making me flinch in the contact.
"It's okay now you can stop crying" a familiar voice said making me open my eyes and raise my head
immediately.
I saw Glen looking worried and I immediately hug him and buried my face in his chest and cried. He
comforted me that day and I was so thankful that he came to save me.
We went to the guidance and reported the incident but what happened shocked me even more, the
bullies made the incident the other way around making us the bad guys and them the victim.
I tried explaining the truth but they didn't listen telling that I was lying and made me went other of the
room so that they could ask Glen what really happened.
They made me wait outside the office and when they went out, I was too shocked and horrified.
Glen was limping when he walks out with bruises on his face and the teacher pushed him outside
making him stumble on the ground and groan in so much pain.
The staffs around us just looked at him and no one helped us as we went out of that place.
That day I promised myself
I'm not going to be weak no more...
I will not let anyone take advantage of me...
I will become stronger so that I can stand beside him....
So that I won't see that face again on that day when it was all my fault why he was hurt.
I blamed myself for being weak who couldn't stand for herself.
"But still here I am being protected again" I mumble in pain while I stare at my feet as tears slowly falls
on my thigh. I grip my hands on my skirt while resisting to cry louder.
"What...if..." I slowly sob while reminiscing that memory over again.
I tried to wipe my tears but still they are not stopping and just like a dam which has been opened. It just
like it... it's falling on its own accord and I can't stop it from falling down.
"What...if.. that will happen again" I shrug my head again.
"What...if.. they'll hurt him" I grip my skirt harder than before.
"What...if.." I snap and hold my head trying to control myself.
I grip my hair and I felt nothing so I grip harder so that maybe I could feel pain too.
(No pain... I can't feel anything. I feel nothing) Again my body stopped working and it became numb
from everything.
I am slowly falling... falling again in a dark abyss that I have created back then, that time.
"H...elp...m...e" I was always whispering that word to anyone who could hear it.
Trying to reach out of this hole I am in.
"S...av....e....m...e" I'm slowly sinking again this time and maybe deeper this time.
Suddenly the hole I was in crumbled into pieces as a voiced tried to call me.
"Kaylee" a voice said.
"What's happening" the look around and the place was crumbling.
"Am I being saved" I mutter while looking above.
"Snap out of it Kaylee"
(That voice again. It's so familiar that it is so comforting) I thought while trying to look at the direction
where the voice is coming from.
When suddenly everything got blurry and the it feels like I'm going to faint but somewhat the voice is
giving me strength.
I slowly open my eyes and then look at my surroundings still disoriented so I can't see clearly. I figure
was in front of me and I kind if try to see who is he.
Then the person shakes me whole body making me snap back in reality.
"Glen" I just said in a very soft voice.